I Could Have It So Much Better

Alex performing in Alexandra Palace. What a perfect matching. This night was certainly unforgettable. Not because they were so cool but I was standing in the front row, in LONDON in FRANZ FERDINAND’s gig. It was nearly suicide. I admit.

I don’t know how I got to the front row. I was tiny (well, comparatively) and couldn’t control my body at all. Their performing was definitely brilliant! But most of the time I was thinking about surviving. (It was “Oh~ Gosh! Go away! Don’t! My Ribs~~ Ouch!!” instead of “Wow~ Yeah, Alex!”) The visual was great, and the media was amazing. You must see how many cameras in front of me shooting every bit of Alex and Nick. Alex looked fab on the stage. The whole show was temptating.

I was intending to write a neat article about this gig. However, my qualifying exam came, and now I an even busier than before the exam. Let me just show the pix. Most of them are blurry. The only one recoginisable was under a balance of pressure from everywhere. (Plus it was quite painful.)


This one is relatively clear, seriously. Well do you do you do you want to...


He looked nice in shirts.


So if you're lonely, You know I'm here waiting for you...
Yeah~~ It was Take Me Out!!
I say, "Don't you know?"
You say, "You don't know."
I say, "Take me out."
I filmed this one, truly a brilliant song in a live performance. The whole venue rocked.


Let me sing a song for you. He could be sensitive.
Surprisingly, they showed emotions. This was not what I expect but made thier play more interesting. It was like I saw different them.


Alright, this was the best one I've captured that nite. I caught the right moment and shot. It seemed peaceful on stage but I was fighting for living in the real life.


After the gig. Alexandra Palace is spacious. There were one screen in the middle plus two at both sides of the stage.

See the setlist and the live report here at NME news.

Queen也不開心了

Under都回家了，空蕩蕩的LMH library，大大的沒有超過五個人。在week 9要考試的人，好像只有我。圖書館很安靜，很溫暖，很舒服。但是我突然好想念自習室那種悶悶的，擁擠也鬧哄哄，很多共筆堆疊在桌上，半夜三點還是很多人在唸書的空間。筆記有缺的就走到附近的桌子去借，大家做的筆記一定都比我的好；吃完飯聊個天再繼續唸。看著我自己在上課聽老師不知所云所做的破碎字體，感覺好寂寞喔。然後，誰來阻止我當好人的欲望，還有用好奇心殺死自己的習慣，我要簡單的生活。在台灣覺得寂寞其實不孤單，在這邊覺得被包圍其實才無助。

應該完了，是祝我幸福。不知道為什麼，今天特別動人。

Trip at Cam

嗯嗯，吃完North parade 買回來的 baguette，感覺非常滿足，可以寫一下遊記。North Parade Ave.，是這附近我很喜歡的小巷。遊記是關於~ Cambridge的同學邀請我們去玩。昨天和同學會的成員一起到Cambridge玩了一天。以前來的時候，根本搞不清楚學院制到底是怎麼一回事，對這間學校特殊的傳統了解的也不多。我只記得我有在King's College參觀，還有punting，與River Cam。這一次來玩，心情是完全地不同了，很奇妙的只有我自己才能懂得的轉變。

今天很冷霧氣很重，但是陽光充足。早上七點多我就爬起來，路上的景觀和前幾天一樣，到處都結了霜， leafy Norham Gardens，地上的落葉閃耀著冰晶的光澤，路邊的車都覆蓋上一層白霜，依然是非常寧靜。我匆匆快步走，想要趕上集合時間。我每天都想要把最近美到可以擊倒人的景色拍下來，但是天氣冷就愛賴床，我總是再最後一秒才出門，希望我總有一天可以拍下整片大草地都雪白的 University Park 給大家看。

到了Gloucester Green，我們的巴士站，看到大家冷得冒煙在等待出發，感覺真像小時候的遠足好好玩。到了Cambridge，馬上就感覺到不同。Cambridge是一個比較開放參觀，鄉村風格的城鎮。Oxford大部分的學院不太歡迎觀光客，有的學院還要收錢，進任何地方都要密碼或是刷電子鎖。連 University Park 都是晚上會鎖起來。相較之下，Cam比較開放一點，尤其是三大學院，King's, Trinity and St. John's，裡面的觀光客多到不像話。Cam也沒有什麼柏油路，都是小小的鋪石磚路的巷子。汽車很少，行人步調也都慢慢地。是一個漂亮的鄉村的感覺。

Cambridge的同學帶我們參觀了有名的三個學院，會長兼當導遊，非常專業的介紹歷史。因為我在這邊已經聽習慣了，所以再多聽一些Cam的東西，並不會感到overwhelming，但是一般人聽頭應該是會昏昏的。在King's 我很驚訝地發現以前我去過的地方，拍過照的地點，我都還記得。三個學院都很漂亮，很大，很壯觀。不過這樣太豪華了，我好想看看真正的Cambridge，學生們真正生活的地方，那剩下的二十幾個學院是什麼樣子呢? 他們的Dining Hall是什麼樣子呢? 我在回來的路上邊整理心思才感覺到。

不過我有看到John's的MCR，我們在那邊休息了一會，喝了下午茶。他們叫它SBR，應該也是為了紀念某個人。不過我私心以為，那個SBR好像也很普通 XP，我相信依照我們的John's 豪奢的風格，MCR應該是比他們厲害很多。兩間學校有很多地方都平行地很相像，不過因為我對Oxford已經有了歸屬感，這邊的景色感覺就是比較立體。我對Oxford有美麗的bias。而且我們有以 Bodleian 為首的一百多個圖書館唷。我知道口說無憑，所以我會找一天偽裝成觀光客在Oxford 做市區觀光地。今天我和同學們都在反省，我們早就該在Oxford拍下比今天更多更精采的照片才對，今天的小旅行喚起了我們的觀光魂，哈哈。

回到Oxford都已經晚上十點了，當車子開到熟悉的 Banbury Rd. ，大家都好開心。還是這邊好阿，這裡才是生活的地方，路上好熱鬧，去 clubbing 學生把市區的氣氛弄得轟隆隆。回到學院附近的高級住宅區，房子還是一樣漂亮，寧靜的夜晚突顯出我每一個腳步，回到房間的時候忍不住要說一聲たたいまー。

Sigur Rósing

Sigur Rós, the one that I anticipated most. Their gig is my favourite this year. They are real geniuses. Their music is amazingly beautiful.

When listen hard to their music, I can feel my heart bumping irregularly, blood rushing in the vessels and my mind wondering in a neverland. When turning down the volume, however, it becomes a perfect BGM. What eles can you ask for? It was cold that night. Like last Sat. I took the bus to Victoria Station again and then the tube straight to Birxton. The venue for tonight is another Carling--Carling Academy Brixton, claimed to be the "Best Live Venue" by NME.

Before I came, there were several friends including British or American, asking bands I am going to see. White Stripes and Franz Ferdinand were OK, they are quite famous obviously. Sigur Rós, in the other way, always got blank faces after I uttered the name. It was like: who are they? is it a British band? No, they are Icelanders. And then speechless... huh. But I knew this gig was going to be great.

There was, as usual, Amina before the major start of Sigur Rós. Their musik is crystal clear, made by sources you couldn't imagine. The sounds are hypnotic and cold, they are also part of the performance of Sigur Rós. Unlike the White Stripes ones, nearly everyone listen to their music. Maybe because their similarity to Sigur Rós and their good quality of music. I quite like them, but when the first sound come from Sigur Rós on the stage, I was spellbound. Suddenly I realised how good they are.

Sometimes their songs were all alike but still they elicited different feelings. Sometimes I felt welcomed, and sometimes nostalgia. I felt like flying and also I felt like dreaming. Everytime the drum started to beat strongly, my heart beats stonger. I stopped to talk with my friend, and forgot to blink my eyes nor change my gesture. I was entralled.

It is hard to delineate their performance as well as their sounds. It was like magic, capturing whole your mind. Some said this gig was more like a classical concert than a rock gig or they were like postmodern classic (what's that?). I would say they are not even bothered with those broad classifications.

The setlist was arranged to give us a journey-like feeling. It was: intro, glosolio, ny batteri, se lest, saeglopur, njosnavelin, gong, andvari, hoppipolla, med blodnasir, olsen olsen, vidrar vel, svo hjlott, heysatan / hafssol, smaskifa / popplagid. (from their website, wrote by jón þór birgisson I think. I cant recall all of them XP) It started with the introductory tracks, intro and glósóli, from the takk... album. Then gave us a mixed taste of ágætis byrjun, ( ), and takk.... It ended up with the epic

popplagið which was my favorite at the unforgettable nite. The stage was designed rather simple--only lights and white backdrop. Images projected were enigmatic but there was mysteriously close correspondence between the visual and the acoustic. The twinkling stars, the unsettled birds, and flickering images from their vids combined with the lucid vocal, guitar, bass, xylophone, violin, piano and drums... Oh it's overwhelming. I've filmed popplagið. Everytime I watch it, it still takes my breath away.

































The venue, Acedemy Brixton. The words on the white semi-circle were "SIGUR ROS" and "SOLD OUT". Most of the people waited outside in the small lane (your right hand side of this pic). It was a cold cold night. We did jumping, waving and running continually to keep warm. You can see more pix of this venue on their wibsite. The interior of the auditorium is worth seeing. It's like a Roman garden and there's even simulated moonlight. It's more like a setting for plays such as "A Midsummer Night's Dream" or something like that.

Seven Nation Army

還在台灣的時候，就訂了White Stripes的票。當時我不知道我隔天會有一篇 Essay 要交，也不知道我過去這一週會有多累人。所以我就在雨中從家裡走近半小時到車站，坐上 Oxford Express，包包裡還有paper，好像沒有什麼力氣去品嚐我去倫敦看的第一場gig。

倫敦嘛，不就是我四年前住過的那一個城市。但是當車子進入central London，我看到黑夜中的這個城突然百感交集。以前我來的時候總是白天到十一點，現在五點就天黑了。雨夜中人潮熙來攘往，而且他們的H&M好大間，真是個大城市阿...，我心中很鄉巴佬地這樣想著。原來我住了一個多月的城市，還真的是很小，哈。

今天表演的場地是在Carling Apollo Hammersmith，據朋友的藝術家德國人室友說，Hammersmith是 Carling 系列最大的一個場地。我很悠閒地七點才到表演場地，因為Doors open at 7，但是這一場整個就是一直Delay。混亂地經過一個很像大學生出來亂表演的小暖場團，只有鼓手兼主唱有認真在表演，一點點像Mike Skinner風格的東西。然後是比較專業的團體，有一點點 Nirvana 的味道，可是大家在他們表演完給的熱烈掌聲實在很像是在歡迎 White Stripes 出來。

然後到了晚上九點多，他們終於登場。很奇妙的感覺，Jack & Meg 竟然已經變成這麼有知名度的團體了。這點可以從黃牛的人數，票的定價，周邊的昂貴程度，還有讓我們等待的時間來斷定他們已經是有一點了不起的大牌了。我一直都很喜歡 Meg 篤定的鼓聲，也很喜歡她唱歌。Jack 歇斯底里的歌聲在某些時候也很悅耳。今天的表演不只涵蓋了Get Behind Me Satan，也有一半是來自於 White Blood Cell，Elephant 等等的經典曲目。我對他們的感情並不算很深，但是Jack&Meg 兩人表演契合的程度很讓人驚艷。不論是鼓聲，鋼琴，木琴，鈴鼓或是人聲，兩方發出的聲音，總是像在同一個頻率上，連強度都一樣地合鳴著，聽起來像是只有一個腦袋在演奏。現場只有Jack在帶領演奏的氣氛，Meg就像是他的洋娃娃一樣被牽進來表演。今天Jack White改名為Three Quid，沒有/不知道為什麼；不過他依然稱呼 Meg 為 my sister，在 In The Cold Cold Night，也靠到 Meg 身上去，雖然我覺得今天 Meg 不太想理他。

我實在是很喜歡 Meg 的表演，她坐得昂首挺胸演奏出磅礡的鼓聲，但是人卻是很自得其樂地微笑，扭腰，放鬆，彷彿無視於台下數幾千人的存在。好笑的是，每當 Meg 有 solo 的動作出現，或是唱她的那兩首 Passive Manipulation，In The Cold Cold Night 的時候，台下都會有一陣低頻的男人喝彩聲，她在台上的確是很迷人。我一直都在等待 Seven Nation Army。在這首歌出來之前，My Doorbell，Blue Orchid，The Danial Twist 等最近受歡迎曲目，還有像是 Fall In Love With A Girl，眾人合唱的 I Just Dont Know What To Do With Myself，都還不錯。只是現場買啤酒進進出出的人實在是很多，除了Stall Standing 前幾排有比較開心之外，很多人感覺都亂冷靜的，直到倒數第二首歌。前奏一出來，那著名的 Seven Nation Army 喚醒了眾人的知覺。原來 Londoner 喜歡這首歌的程度是和我一樣的。開心。

一些花絮。NME說 Led Zeppelin 的吉他手 Jimmy Page 有出現在今天的會場! 不知道他的用意是什麼，媒體好像覺得他應該是來搶風采的?! (要是這樣的話，他應該沒有成功) 因為Jack White 常常被拿來跟他比較。我對 Led Zeppelin 一點也不熟，當天也沒有看到 Jimmy Page，不過這個新聞還是蠻有趣的。會後出了Carling Apollo Hammersmith，有很多穿著紅袍的工讀生在發空白CD，用來讓我們Download 今天還有之後幾場在Alexandra Palace，Blackpool，Glasgow，Manchester 所表演的 The Denial Twist。很會賺錢。

今天的曲目很短，不到兩個小時，也許只有一個半小時吧 (真是騙錢! )，在冷冷的夜裡我腦中響著My Doorbell 不斷重複的旋律，兩點回到家，繼續寫 Essay。





我當天很悔恨地沒有帶到相機，只好用很爛的手機拍一下。這是排隊要入場的人潮，上面白色那發光的物體，理論上是寫WHITE STRIPES。排隊的人潮非常地多，繞到了旁邊的巷子，還有隔一條街的商家。但是坐在劃位區的人，到了九點多開始表演了才來的也是很多。





手機拍起來感覺好遠阿。。。依稀中可以看到Jack White，他在舞台的中間偏右邊彈吉他中。Meg後方有一個很大的聚光燈發射，所以完全看不到她。。。嗚。。。





這就是表演結束之後會場外發的免費空白片，正面一樣是白紅黑三色，背面是各地演唱的時間。當然還有讓你花錢DL的說明。

Firework

我怒了，為什麼又是這樣。外面現在在放煙火，非常大聲，我可以聽到火花掉下來的聲音。超級熱鬧。感覺很HIGH。聽同學說是wolfson college的煙火節，幾百年前大概有個爛國王死掉，在慶祝。什麼東西??

大學時期也是這樣，每次聖誕節，新年，外面都在放煙火，辦晚會，但是我們總是隔天要考試。我印象最深的是有一次聖誕夜在念解剖，我晚上才開始看，正要衝的時候，外面開始唱歌辦晚會，大聲到不可思議。好呀，我習慣了，反正每次都這樣。

What I Did

I've got to say something.

In my past two weeks many things happened. Two drafts have been written down but I can never find a time to edit them. I guess I will just leave them and never go back. Here is briefly what I did in the past week.

<Monday> 31/10. It was Halloween. It's huge in the states but not here. Oxford does not obsess about Halloween. However, we do have some activities for that, some normal ones, not like the parades in the states. Several Halloween bops were held. I've been one at St. Cross last Sat. In LMH, we had a murder mystery dessert party on Monday night. We played our own role and tried to discover who the murder was. The setting was late 19th century and I was Queen Victorian's lady-in-waiting. Everybody had to dress up for that.

<Tuesday> I had a wirte-up due this day. I wrote more than 2000 words in this one plus some graphs and excel charts. This one is all about pharmacokinetics and statistics. Full of math but I'm ok with this level of statistics.

<Wednesday> I had my second tutorial with my mentor. She said my second essay was much better than my first one. Hence I was so happy for the rest of the day.

<Thursday> There was formal dinner in St. Anne. The weather was getting cold but I insisted wearing a skirt. Heh. St. Anne is a modern one, like a vacation resort. Their in-campus accommodation looks like a hotel room, with balcony!

<Friday> Another write-up due this day. I started on it from 9am and hand it in at 4pm. 1800 words. Then rushed to high street to buy a cheap jumper. It was freezing! I went to St. Cat for another guest dinner. Cat is very different from LMH. Security here is strict and even getting out you need a fob (some kind of electronic key). But I can enter nearly everywhere in Cat without a password or key. I had a nice and long talk with a medic called Sally. Cats people are lovely.

<Saturday> It is just beginning now. I need to finish my another essay today then I can go to see White Stripes tomorrow in London. I was almost regret booking that ticket because I was exausted this week. I want to sleep I want to eat I want to listen to music I want to hang out with friends without worrying about my essaies. I want sunshine.

I've heard that it was 31 degrees in TW yesterday. Don't you really!!? It's 5°C here. I need some more clothes, seriously. Got to go back to work now. Take care~

How people dressed in the murder mystery party. We had finished the murder mystery when taking the photo.The background is our old libery, now used for gala night things I think.

You are now officially as members of...

經過了禮拜五交出第一份Essay之後，我覺得我已經可以畢業了。當然這是誇飾法，但是至少我存活過了一次，世界突然又變得美好了起來。十月十五號是今年Matriculation的日子。學校對很多古老的傳統都有莫名的堅持，想要成為oxbridgde的一份子，都要經過Matriculation這一個儀式。理論上一生只會發生一次，就是在你第一次進入oxbridge就讀的時候，如果你之前是念過cam，或是under是ox的學生，那今天就不用再入學一次了。So it's once for a lifetime。

今天終於第一次穿上了整套的academic dress。Graduate Gown+Cap+Sub Fusc。under的Gown是到腰間，graduate gown是到膝蓋；男生要手持motar board (就是向學士帽一樣的東西)，女生可以選擇motar board or soft cap。Sub Fusc對男生來說就是黑西裝／白襯衫／黑皮鞋／白領結；女生是白襯衫／黑色裙或褲／黑絲帶／黑鞋。基本上就是一個保守到了極限的穿著。但是今天是艷陽天，強烈的陽光照在黑白相間的gown與襯衫上，每個人都看起來意氣風發。

整個流程其實很簡單，今天一整天各個學院會輪流到Sheldonian Theatre進行matriculation，我們的大約是在下午兩點。中午在學院漂亮的後花園照相，不論是JCR or MCR，大家都很興奮。Freshers Photo是照身高排的，越矮的越後面，然後我是站在最後一排。我知道我不高，到了今天才知道我有這麼矮orz，不過可以站得高高的很高興，哈哈哈。照完相principle要先點名，確定參予者，然後就從LMH朝Sheldonian Theatre前進，大約走了十五到二十分鐘。這原本是一個很得意的路程，但是我和我的室友Helen 聊的太開心，竟然忘記享受一下片刻的虛榮。在Sheldonian Theatre裡面，大家也興奮地拍照，聽說還有的學院有玩波浪舞，真是太青春了。Vice-chanceller (大約等同於大學校長) 在手持權杖Bedel的引領之下走進來。宣誓的過程其實很短，英文與拉丁文交雜，重點只有一句，you are now been matriculated。然後大家哄堂大笑，就這麼簡單?? fresher們忙了半天，想辦法搞懂這個莫名奇妙的儀式，然後就這樣非常簡潔有力地說完了? Vice-chanceller也淺淺地笑了。

結束了之後，大家突然放鬆了起來，走出Sheldonian Theatre，大家開始在city centre開心地說笑，去喝酒覓食，穿著gown w/ sub fusc，衣衫不整。我同系的同學Sylvie說她快餓死了，我才發現我今天還沒有吃東西，這時已經下午兩點半。決定我們要先回家拿錢 (因為穿著sub fusc，實在想不到該拿怎樣的包包，索性只帶鑰匙出門)，換下sub fusc去學院附近的Brown吃今天的早中晚餐。因為吃完已經五點半了。然後七點要去Zodiac看Laura Veirs，剛好她到英國來表演。我下次再寫她的表演吧，希望我會寫。結束已經十點半了，我們學院今天和Balliol有合辦Gambling Ball，但是我唯一的小洋裝竟然放在家裡沒帶到 (氣)，所以我決定要去探探聽說很讚的St. John's College的Bar。今天John's & Hilda's有合辦Bop*，主題是Blng Blng，一個John's undergraduate跟我說那是要白人要假裝黑人hip hop風格的一種氣氛，像是戴很粗的金項鍊之類的。難怪放的歌全都是hip hop，我不喜歡跳hip hop，不過有放hollaback girl所以也蠻開心。St. John's 不愧是很有錢的學院，Bar很新又漂亮，還有大大的玻璃牆，而且有兩個Bar。今天除了MCR的Blng Blng，JCR也有Oriental party。而且入場不用錢，還送一杯飲料! 當barmaid問我要喝什麼的時候，我竟然說anything! 因為我對調酒不熟悉嘛。她好像就用gin配pineapple juice給我。然後我ㄧ邊跟人聊天，一邊就喝完了，嗚。然後開始覺得頭痛痛的，要比較專心才懂外國人再說什麼。好處是可以不管有沒有跟別人一起，都可以開心地跳舞。但是隔天白天一直都很萎靡... 天呀我現在又開始覺得頭有點暈了。教授說alcohol在kidney reabsorption非常快，所以要是沒有被代謝掉的話，half-life是55 hr。。。 阿，我大概就是Prof. Brading口中說的 "有一些亞洲人，體內幾乎沒有alcohol dehydrogenase" 的典範。

好，我火速地描述完我的一天，依然保持我最近樸實流水帳的風格，照片在相簿裡面，有我愚蠢地穿gown的樣子，大家口下留情。十二月考Qulifying Exam還要再穿一次，阿阿。

(*) Bop，已經沒有人知道什麼時候開始，或是為什麼，但這似乎是學院parties的暱稱。這邊有好多這樣的簡稱，念起來笨笨的，一點可愛。 像是電子鑰匙叫fob，學生證叫bod card，信箱叫pigeon hole。每個人都有自己的一個pigeon hole。我一直聽說Tony Blair的兒子在我們學院，我明天一定要去看看有沒有一個pigeon hole是叫Blair的。嘿。

Fresher's Dinner

今天晚上是LMH的 Fresher's Dinner of Graduates。每個學院的Fresher's Dinner時間都不一樣，有的學院上個禮拜就舉辦過了，而我們是今天。這是一種正式的晚餐，西裝是必要的，然後會有學院的老師們坐在前面，類似Harry Potter開學的時候吃的那一餐。燭光晚餐。有三道菜和甜點。我們學院的Dining Hall就像稍微縮小版的Christ Church那樣(就是Harry Potter電影裡面的那一個Dining Hall)，前面有橫的一排是學院的老師們，然後下面是學生，一列一列的長桌。我們必需dress smartly。聽說LMH的食物算是眾學院中不錯的，尤其是甜點很有名。實際吃的結果也算不錯，甜點是Raspberry Couli，我不知道couli是什麼意思，吃起來就是覆盆子慕斯，果然名不虛傳。今天很詭異地有Seat Map，所幸那似乎是照科目排的，所以我的這一排，坐的都是Medicine or Science學生，不然我真不知道要如何跟研究Medieval English的學生聊超過半小時。最近我去了幾次MCR(Middle Common Room, seems to be how we call our graduate student body)的活動，其實對不停地跟各國人聊天有點厭倦了，因為內容總是差不多。不過今天我和同系的黎巴嫩女生一起坐，總算可以聊一些其他的，像是她週末去倫敦逛街，或是我們聖誕節的規劃等等。當然還有討論一下禮拜五要交的兩千字報告...。另一邊是一個非常有趣的Irish guy，我發覺愛爾蘭腔非常有趣，不知道是因為他特別好笑，還是真是這樣。我們隨便亂聊，不用從家鄉或是語言聊起真是太好了。現在很多MCR people 應該在學院的bar (每個學院都有自己的bar，不過我覺得LMH bar不怎麼樣...) 喝酒續攤吧，不過我禮拜五要交essay，明天一早又有課... Orz

上個禮拜是week 0，不過我們已經開始上課了，我的十幾個同學有的友善，有的很冷淡，很難猜透吶。大部分學生under都是在這邊或是其他大學念的，或是其他英文很通用的國家來的，大概我是唯一不習慣英文的人吧>"< 所以我要專心聽才可以跟上，聊天的時候也不可能像中文一樣多話。我們的課很滿，報告又多，一週一篇essay和一個實驗報告(6-7張A4的那種)。Michealmas Term與Hiliary Term間理論上有六週假期，但聽說我們只有兩週，還要完成一個4000字還是多少的extended essay。阿...。

其他還有很多事情可以說，像是我今天去買了Gown，為了入學式還有以後的考試要用的。其實蠻笨的，就是入學那一天，要穿一套Sub Fusc，是這邊的academic dress，以後考試的時候也要穿。想像那有多瘋狂，到了期末考那天，學生穿上sub fusc，手拿著motarboard，紛紛走進city centre的exam school考試，三小時過後，你的心情很shit，外表大概也因為多日的熬夜狠憔悴，一走出exam schl卻是一堆觀光客要跟你合照...

恩，好，我該停了，這次我有用中文寫了喔... 不過不太有組織，也沒有辦法生動地好好描述，大家忍耐一下喔。我該去圖書館還書了...

New Life Here

Yeah... I know I've got to say something about what've happened these days. I am a bit busying on nearly everything here~ didn't take pictures because dont have the leisure. But I can still talk a bit about life here.

I've met people from everywhere. Oxford is more international than I thought. Half of the graduate students are from outside the UK I think. So far I've got alone with them pretty well. People in my college are all very nice. Staffs are friendly and so as my MCR person. I've just finished my dinner in LMH dining hall. Poo... there are too many undergrads. They are so energetic and YOUNG. I haven't met whole faculty in my department but I did met my class. As usual, we are from everywhere. We've covered the 4 major continents (except people from the Antarctic). We are anticipated to work hard though this year... so we'll see.

As to the food and weather, I can tell you both of them not every enjoyable. It's very cold now if you use the standard in TW. It's about 10 degrees Celsius at night Currently. Check the weather. I've trained myself to get use to the weather here. Food is okay. They wont satisfy your appetite but will always feed you.

The city is cool, there are many shops--supermarkets, argos and high street shops as well. Always there will be many tourists around city centre and spots like Bodleian and Christ Church. We only have show our student card and we are in. It's probably the few moment freshers feel the vanity. Hah~

I think I will be busy for another few days. So here is just my short talk about life here. It's exciting and definitely unforgettable. I hope I can show you photos soon.

Oh, there are 2 more things I should mention here.

First, L'Arc-en-Ciel gigs were really cool. Hopefully I will write it down soon. And thanks to Amelia, I really ate too much food in Tokyo. I've missed those foods already, you know...

Second, I will not have access to BBS and Skype for a whole year. Tragedy, I know. The University blocks all peer to peer (P2P) programs so I can't use skype, technically. My college blocks port 23 so I can't login BBS at all. Please please contact me through www ways!

Twilight Glow On White Sand Cove

謝謝大家。你們這樣害我忍的狠辛苦阿。昨天晚上我的頭就好痛，越聽惠婷的聲音越睡不著，結果今天早上眼睛腫得跟什麼一樣。你們要好好照顧自己嘿。我要冷靜我要冷靜~~~

爸爸認真地學email 還有學打字，練習信的內容很短很短，祝 妳 留學 快 樂 。笨拙的樣子，讓我說不出話來。晚上油苔還有妹妹的小花閃了，看完當然更是…。今天醒來收到了學費通知(終於!)，學費突然變兩倍讓我嚇出了一身冷汗，忙著和學院還有系上秘書連絡，幸好一切是誤會。把我的感性全部都趕走，想說我要寫一篇搞笑的謝謝大家… 怎麼到了晚上大家又發動攻勢啦… 嗚嗚嗚，害我都不敢跟你們說話，超級想躲起來的阿!! (結果還是躲起來了)

你要繼續幫我看著阿山還有麵包超人，找到一間很棒的房子，我回來才可以再去看小四唷

希望你的小老鼠可以活很久很快樂，然後記得防曬就會變白

加油修完每一門課，要是遇到心機人，我們還是可以一起討論心機回去喔

希望妳接下來一切順利，好好寫SOP，大家去加州找你玩阿

狂歡完不要忘記睡飽飽喔，要一直綻放下去~~ 你是青春的精神領袖吶

我的笨蛋妹妹不知道這邊，她最近跌下樓梯臉都傷到了。記得，不可以偷吃炸的烤的有顏色的，不可以曬太陽還有熬夜也不行。我一直都假裝沒有看到閃閃閃的小花裡面，她難過得眼淚一直掉的文章；我也在她用暱稱鼓勵我去面試要加油的時候，不敢上線；原來晚上她躲在棉被裡是在偷哭。要好好照顧爸爸媽媽，也要繼續珍惜你身邊的小事物。我太不擅長這種感性的時刻，所以只好逃避，其實我都有看到。謝謝你。

內內內，其實事情也沒有很嚴重，只是變得有時差，MSN上一樣能遇到，只是不能一起吃Friendy，大家要多幫我看幾場live，多吃一點台灣好吃的食物，有空記得要去海邊玩。我會努力幫你們勘查這邊的地形，幫你們找便宜的東西，然後把我入學式的照片，穿制服考試的照片，起霧的照片，下雪的照片，出去玩的照片都給你們看。

★ 謝謝大家。我會把白沙灣的天亮一直放在心中 ★

Post Congress Tour Photos

原本想發懶，但一邊回想一邊發現許多有趣的細節越來越模糊，好可惜，所以還是趁有時間把congress的事情寫完吧。參與congress的學生有許多都是拿國家或學校的經費出去的，所以congress結束之後就得回家了。但是我已經聽說會後旅遊才能是真正的國際經驗，所以一開始就決定要自費參加。團費出乎意料地便宜，好像只要七千塊台幣一個禮拜含吃住，感謝主辦人Lucija的強力募款。先介紹一下我可愛的Post Congress Tour成員們。這大概是我們唯一的大合照，因為大家總是很無法控制地亂跑。背景應該是在Slovenia境內。我是中間穿著紅色GAP童裝的人。能夠這樣組成一個小團體到各地旅遊是很特別的經驗。歐洲的國家版圖與民族，在歷史上一直是交錯縱橫的，所以到博物館參觀的時候，不管導覽員介紹的物品來自哪兒有什麼歷史，我們總是有人可以舉手呼應；也因此導覽員的講解必須特別客觀並且正確。很特別吧。

Post Congress Tour都在幹嘛呢? 一開始我們先在匈牙利境內遊走。這天坐了很久的local train之後到了一個農莊。圖中就是西方人很愛的grill。肉非常大一塊，很狂野，像是要給魔戒中的矮人吃的那一種。後面還有一隻很高大的馬，我根本就爬不上去；終於踩著別人的手坐上去後，卻又很驚恐，因為真的很高耶! 照片中只依稀看得到馬屁股。。。

一群pharmacy students 出遊，當然還是要去一下藥廠參觀，KRKA藥廠也是這次旅行的贊助商。這天是在KRKA座落的城裡用的餐。很寧靜的小城，沿路包括公園都有KRKA的旗幟，餐廳也是KRKA的，居民或許都是員工吧。我以為這樣的城只有美國才有，沒想到Slovenia也有呀。吃完飯之後不知道為什麼大家又開始跳舞。配合場地的健康氣息，我們今天來跳可愛的土風舞吧!











這是我在Slovenia境內以及整個旅途中最喜愛的Bar。非常酷的地方。有許多動物與怪獸的骨骼自天花板垂掛下來，或是浮裱在磚牆上，廁所的門是一面古舊的書櫃牆，非常難察覺。哥德的感覺混雜了德古拉或噴火龍要出現的氣氛，除了音樂。Barman會在敲鐘後噴火。火焰之大在這個小小的Bar裡的每一處都可以感受到熱氣。

後面的是Marco。老實說跟他們相處了這麼多天，我的酒量是人生最好的狀態—大概一杯普通雞尾酒不會頭痛。(對不起厚，但是我根本就是會對酒過敏的人啊! ) 雖然被帶去品嚐的白酒很好喝，但我大概啜個三種就不行了，全身像煮熟蝦子還是螃蟹一樣，外帶不昏睡過去受不了的頭痛，對嗜酒的他們來說，很不可思議。





對了，為什麼歐洲人這麼愛舞曲還有酒呢? 不管是啤酒，葡萄酒，whisky， vodka。。。每個國家的人都有自己的精通，整個congress就是在交流各地帶來的酒。還沒醉的就跳舞。我和他們討論半天，發覺他們真的也沒別的事可以做，當然也沒有像春水堂那樣的單位有各式各樣的飲料可以嘗試，所以當台灣人很幸福吶。。。

又有一個地方變成舞池了。我們把中間的桌子全都移開，硬是創造出跳舞的空間，還逼迫DJ放適合跳舞的歌，像是那年流行的Kylie。不過這對DJ不成問題，歐洲人瘋舞曲的程度超乎想像，到了一種聽多了頭會痛的地步，尤其如果你在德國的話。至於當晚其他的客人呢? 我也不知道，後來好像在旁邊看我們玩也挺開心的!

當晚有好多瘋狂的演出，這邊只選出一張由墨西哥舞后Monica與葡萄牙舞王Marco共舞的相片。Monica人很好，會幫我挑不烈的雞尾酒，還會教我跳舞的招式 (不過我好像已經退化，忘了)。Monica與Marco兩人大概是棋逢敵手，所以常常會跳很厲害的東西給我們看。 他們兩人的關係很正常。因為與Marco有染的女生。。。是另一個 XD











這大概是平常在等待集合時間的混亂模樣。有什後很累，有時候嘻嘻鬧鬧。我們沿途都住在青年旅館中 ，但常常吃餐廳，去bar也有酒喝，怪吧。行李很重可是都要自己扛到四樓或五樓的房間。房間裡面只有床和薄被。只有公用的衛浴，有時候有熱水。一樓公用空間也許只有一個Joey&Chandler很愛的桌上型足球可以玩，或沒有。但是這些都無損旅遊的品質，只要大家聚在一起，連普通的團康遊戲用英語講起來都特別有趣。





前陣子自己到美國也住了一會兒hostel。想像一下在DC area，街上幾乎沒有人，只有流浪漢坐在路邊呼喚我，天色逐漸變成名符其實的黑夜，我卻還沒找到hostel的位置，有點毛吧。終於走進hostel，都是在聊天或一起看電視的美國大學生，我也要配合演出好像本國人一般地自在。別人在討論明天要去哪邊玩，或是喲暍要一起去哪邊喝酒，我要乖乖地舖床，洗冰水澡，背地圖，念paper，那時候就覺得Holiday Inn簡直是天堂。不過我還是很喜歡住hostel的感覺，隨機地和各地的旅人聊天，非常有治療心靈的效果。當然聊完除了可以分享旅遊的心得或是壓力之外，也會覺得，哼哼，沒什麼難的嘛，哈哈。

我說遠了~ 結束了與IPSFers愉快的旅行，從Budapest飛到Amsterdam，在轉機點又待了幾天。Amsterdam是一個容易旅遊的城市，即使是Red Light District在白天都算安全，擁有運河風光與水準很高的博物館，值得一遊。我自己獨自行走所以沒有嚐試大麻，因為即使是大麻蛋糕，效果也很強烈。雖然說大麻只能在café裡面抽，但是街上拎著一管走的人也不少，大多面色迷濛。照片上是傍晚的市區裡，有著華麗石雕與路燈的藍橋(Blauwbrug)，手上是DK出版的Amsterdam。在挑選旅遊書的時候，DK與Lonely Planet各有特色，總是不會錯的選擇。Amsterdam是一個天空總是很清澈漂亮的城市，然而每當獨自行走，都會有許多回憶浮現。我竟然在Amsterdam對Budapest的人們感到離/鄉愁。

最後說一個好消息。2007年的IPSF大會要從台灣舉辦唷! 八月在德國Bonn剛辦完的51st IPSF congress才選出來的呢! 沒記錯的話2002年世界醫學生年會(IFMSA)就在台灣辦過了。2002年也是我們舉辦亞太區藥學生年會(APPS)，以及我參加IPSF，很精采的一年。這次竟然可以主辦世界年會真的很棒! 因為台灣藥學生聯會甚至不是Full Member。(台灣在世界醫學生會是Full Member，因為加入得較早；但是在IPSF就受到政治力干預，只能先卡位為Member in Association，總之情況是越來越艱難) 不過我大概可以想像這不是一個簡單的任務。這樣的活動除了需要政府方面的全力支持之外(這點我相信衛生署還有外交部的長官們應該會給予許多幫助)，學生團體的合作是很重要的。台灣學生在IPSF總是有許多外力要克服，各校的合作又不一定夠順暢，一定會有一群人很辛苦吧。希望兩年後在台灣舉辦的53rd Congress可以一切順利。

Mercury Prize 2005: LIVE

Mercury Prize will announce their winner of 2005 today. Lovely Jo Whiley and Jools Holland will host the Mercury Prize show. It will be broadcast on Radio 1 and Radio 2. So stay tuned tonight if you are awake. For those who are luckily in the UK at present, it will be screened live on BBC Four.

Time: Tuesday 6 September 2005 9pm-10.30pm

(Friday 7 Sep. 4am-5.30pm in Taiwan;
Tuesday 6 Sep. 4pm-5.30pm in NY and vice versa)

Channel: BBC Four; Radio 1 and 2

Playlist: Maya Arulpragasam (aka MIA)


Kaiser Chiefs


KT Tunstall


Antony & The Johnsons


The Go! Team


The Magic Numbers


Polar Bear


Bloc Party


Seth Lakeman


Full list of Nominees:


Antony and the Johnsons - I Am A Bird Now


Bloc Party - Silent Alarm


Coldplay - X&Y


The Go! Team - Thunder, Lightning, Strike


Hard-Fi - Stars of CCTV


KT Tunstall - Eye to the Telescope


Kaiser Chiefs - Employment


The Magic Numbers - The Magic Numbers


Maximo Park - A Certain Trigger


MIA - Arular


Polar Bear - Held on the Tips of Fingers


Seth Lakeman - Kitty Jay

Kaiser Chiefs are favourites in the UK. Coldplay and Bloc Party stand in second and third place separately. Who will you bet on?

Packing For Leaving For Living

Finally I have my parcel packed. It will reach Norham Mews prior to my arriving. Never feeling well when packing, coz I have to make too many choices in a too short period. I have a cardboard box sit in my room for 10 days and starve it for 9 days. I guess I was unwilling to feed it because I did’t want to face that—I'm leaving.

After returning from the post office, I found everything is still in my room. What have I sent after all? I started to question myself. Are those I sent needless? But anyway, I will always survive regardless of what has been sent. I had an empty and exhausted feeling in my mind…

However, other things washed away that sentiment quickly.

Tickets of Franz Ferdinand’s UK Tour are open to sale last week. I'm not sure if I should go. London gigs are held on 30/11 & 01/12 in Alexandra Palace. It's not weekend, plus 3 months from now. I've tracked the tickets for several days. Today, I became aware that tickets in London are almost sold out! Mojor booking systems like TicketMaster have nothing left. No time for hesitation! So I ordered. God, I ordered. Without knowing if I can go nor who can go with me. I hope I will be able to attend the gig instead of selling tickets on eBay pathetically. It's gonna be a hot and entertaining show for sure. I can picture Alex singing "Lucky, lucky, you're so lucky" now~

Coldplay’s tour in mid-December was on sale at 9:00am London time (4pm Taipei) today. I knew but do not think about it seriously. I mean… their new X&Y is not as good as previous albums although Fix You is truly touching and beautiful. Besides, I will probably be busying (crazily!) myself with Mid-term then. So I just checked the sale of their tickets for a while this afternoon. But later after I booked Franz Ferdinand, I found Coldplay were nearly sold out everywhere! Only 3-4 hours passed! Moreover, there are loads of Coldplay tickets on eBay now, all over £100 each or much more. (The original price is around £32) Check here. And It's just the very first day… British people are sometimes crazier than I though. They are like the Japanese this time. Unbelievable! Is Chris Martin really that cute?? I should’ve bought several tickets to sell!!

Metal Scrap

在十八歲以前，感動會在心中留下一個靈魂。如果有機會可以將它喚醒，那樣的悸動會變的很糾結很深刻。

27-08-05


又是The Wall。有Tizzy Bac在四分衛前面，非常棒的組合。今天的排隊太順利了，還悠閒吃了個熱狗，我不要再低血糖一次。兩個團的setting都很迅速，整場表演都讓人覺得很舒服。不用透支的身體，也可以讓我有感動。所以上次的那種經驗雖然寶貴，可是希望在下次看festival前，盡量不要再有了。

Tizzy Bac是最近蠻喜歡的團。第一次聽到的經驗並不好，在朋友的車上，鬧脾氣的音響沒有規律地跳針，總是停留在Tizzy Bac的曲子。放棄地開始聽早晨無趣的廣播節目，全部都是無趣的路況報導，或是令人不悅的新聞，僅剩的希望--ICRT，放的是鄉村音樂或是我爸媽嬰兒時期的老歌，天呀，人生有時真是絕望。竟然音響還自動播放CD，間歇地竄出來一陣一陣，聽了一早晨都沒有播完一首。那時我徹夜無眠，心情高昂但是頭痛胃痛身體沒有對勁的，一整個早上的聽覺都像在期待討厭的打嗝停止，但是它就是在你安心的瞬間，又猛烈痙攣一下，非常令人心煩難受；留下了對Tizzy Bac灰色痛苦的印象。後來去看了現場，終於聽到深深沉沉的Tizzy Bac。靜靜地，有什麼就彈什麼，想什麼就唱什麼，沒有勉強，只有很悠揚。然後我就知道了。

這一次為了四分衛及友人苔苔的堅持，站在無台前方正中間。即使我知道這個位置聽到的vocal會很小聲，其他聲音也都會爆裂成一氣。但在偶然的瞬間，可以聽到惠婷的聲音。沒有透過麥克風的聲音總是令人感到很珍貴。惠婷在我前方，演唱依舊投入，偶而會有她習慣的兩隻手輕捶或握拳在慢歌。歌聲變得模糊又小聲，滲入了壞掉的bass與鼓聲，竟然帶給我一種美麗噪音的錯覺，幽幻的變得更迷離。我聽不到歌詞也背不出，卻在破碎的字眼裡，找到了另外一種想像的空間。什麼事都叫我分心，我最喜歡。但在這樣的空間中，我沒有辦法欣賞【呵。愛】今天曲目加入了夏季熱的三首歌，Tizzy Bac變得很有活力，果然是盛夏推出的曲子。EP沒有很成熟的錄音或複雜的編曲，但是不必擔心會不會聽得辛苦。她們的歌也不需要太世故的周邊來傳達。

Setlist:


01. 七年


02. 安東尼


03. 抽筋的胃


04. 什麼事都叫我分心


05. Wondering Everywhere


06. 呵。愛


07. 夏季熱


08. 查理布朗與露西


09. 鞋貓夫人。Madamme!!!

「接下來讓我們歡迎四分衛 !」 在惠婷這樣宣布之後，小小的The Wall開始鼓躁。今天有好多女生，與同等多的相機。想來都是為了帥氣的陳如山先生來的。我身邊的那位苔苔，上個禮拜在永和市公所被阿山灌頂 (就是阿山笨拙的いこ、いこ式摸頭吧 ! ) 之後，內心的小鹿已經陷入無法控制的狂奔。我是盡職的Cameraさん，在主要是演唱新專輯W的這場live中。

以前很喜歡很喜歡的時候，覺得他們是很崇高的存在。現在比較少有這樣的情緒，但是還是喜歡她們不忘初衷的精神。表演前，阿山不知道在悠閒什麼，會出來閒晃(?) 尤其是等待開場的時間，和虎神坐在沙發區聊天。順便享受興奮歌迷包圍合照簽名的感覺(??) 今天又是穿女生的Diesel，是Cherone嗎? 有點想問他為什麼總愛穿女生Diesel，是為了合身還是超低腰。還有始終如一的Dr. Martens皮帶。上台前從卡通風的T-Shirt換成帥氣的背心。虎神的頭髮有Sedo，因為頭髮有年輕到。好，這些很難不注意到的細節，都不是重點。

啊。。。好像有一陣子沒看到阿山和虎神。從達利開始，聽到了阿山的歌聲好高興，一股很熟悉的感覺。今天在來之前，我連他們長什麼樣子都想不起來。阿山現場的歌聲，完全不受場地的限制，比專輯裡還要有穿透力。我不懂為什麼他在W裡面的聲音悶悶扁扁的，現場卻又有清亮的感覺。虎神的吉他依舊是這麼地厲害有靈魂。最近換了新的效果器，他的腳一直很忙，真的很忙，總是跳舞般踩來踩去，難得的solo才會有帥氣的pose與燈光 (這很重要，不然我的DC太弱了)。第二首緊接著就是焦糖瑪奇朵，沒有彈舌式的序幕呼聲，這首歌很有阿山的味道，旋律很爽朗討喜，小小的景象們拼湊出一個心情，我開始覺得很開心。同時要一邊拍照還真分心。

今天台前的迷妹有好幾個，一點點吵，並且我無法理解。好想彈吉他之後，阿山問我們要聽什麼，一片的雨和眼淚。唔。。。我不要啦，我從來沒有特別喜歡起來或是雨和眼淚，所以我大聲地說著【破銅爛鐵】，我要聽破銅爛鐵！然後出來的是項鍊的前奏，台下也是一陣歡呼。新加入的團員，有點難計算出是第幾代，總之是兩個七十二年次的，弟弟s，可惡。奧迪總是被阿山跟虎神玩弄，他們詞窮的時候就會找他麻煩。奧迪在台上喝的竟然是玻璃瓶裝的大台啤。緯緯，這個名字真可愛，在台下拍照的時候會把頭抬起來看鏡頭。這兩個人各說了一個小叮噹的冷笑話，希望他們也可以純真很久。

聽他們這一年多來做的新歌，我慢慢地感受到一種像是復活的感覺。也許他們曾經被主流的公司簽走過，但是他們沒有變，做自己所愛所想，現在他們還是堅持著。我想起來高中時會這麼喜歡他們，就是因為我們都在同樣一個島上，他們的情緒我都懂，那是一種很親近的感動。為什麼阿山跟虎神在慢慢社會化的過程中，可以保持他們的純粹到現在呢。我忽然有一種領悟，只有在這樣有夢的田地，才能有獨特的價值讓人無限投入，才會有不計較利益的行為、還有情誼。一年多前我在做選擇的時候，我知道我做了對的事情，到了現在我才知道最純粹的原因。但是我在聽live，這不是思考人生的時候，阿山跟虎神正在表演耶。

結束了我小小的沉思，表演已經進行到了後半段，虎神說奧迪在曲序上模仿阿山的筆跡，偷偷加一首半台語的雨呷泥大，所以現在要來唱這首歌。(後來我看那張小小的post-it，很明顯地就可以看到奧迪的字，還學的真不像！) 胃痛這首歌我剛剛邊寫邊聽才發現其中的詞是這樣的：清晨剛剛過了三點半 麵包超人傳來打呼聲。哈哈哈，麵包超人有打呼聲了嗎。阿山有沒有變，沒有。但是他的歌詞變的比較柔軟，拼湊的場景變得更加地細微與明亮。虎神也很有心地把歌曲加入了鮮明的各種元素，這部份很抽象，我也不想引用其他樂團或是樂種來說明。我只是要說：那位說他們十年來都沒有變是不行的的大哥，よく聞いていなさい！　

罰球線起跳的前奏，閒閒的主唱跟Bass也在罰球線起跳。他們的表演有太多有趣的對話和動作，阿山和虎神一搭一唱講最近的事情，或是解釋上次吻國璽的事，都太好笑了。虎神模仿麵包超人說，把拔把拔你今天要幾點回來。。。我和隔壁的苔苔互相喀來喀去，快要笑死了。虎神說，9/22晚上有冠宇紀念音樂會，希望大家要來。那天晚上，我也只能遙想了。

Ｌive還是要來一下安可。今天要聽什麼？【為了理想我們變得已經不是東西　只好向世界展示那珍貴的毛病】輪到我了！內心的小鹿豈止是狂奔，根本就是雀躍到飛上天。壓抑著發抖的手錄完第一段，我再也沒有辦法壓抑地開始跳躍！

為了理想我們變得已經不是東西


只好向世界展示那珍貴的毛病


你要我不一定要順從你的神經


但是不巧我又雞皮疙瘩滿地

我們不是你說的破銅爛鐵


沒必要當個馬桶裡的大便


我們甘願去做個破銅爛鐵


沒必要讓自己完全崩潰

你要我沒有想法站在那裡發呆


我卻已抱定主意要去瘋個徹底


填鴨的教育感覺沒有什麼出息


當心你的耳朵聽見我們的聲音

我是個很容易滿足的人，這樣就太夠了。我先前喃喃地對朋友說我想聽破銅爛鐵，真的聽到的感覺就是很爽！

結束之後，簽名照像聊天。在The Wall的迴廊，7-11的三四根旗子上次海洋國際災難日留下來的，還堆在角落。感覺很舒服，我喜歡這樣自然地在同一個空間的感覺，雖然我的眼睛已經在刺痛了。我跟阿山說他們要玩到很老，他說已經很老啦，我說沒有沒有，要到五六十歲那一種! 虎神說他們的項鍊是東森買的，我越想越覺得奇怪，他有沒有騙我呀？

Setlist:


01. 達利


02. 焦糖瑪奇朵


03. Missing


04. Cosmic Lady


05. 再十年以後 / 好想彈吉他


06. 項鍊 (LowGain)


07. 假如我是真的


08. ONLY LOVE


09. 風往哪兒吹


10. 雨呷泥大


11. 胃痛


12. 罰球線起跳


13. 櫻花樹下


** 雨和眼淚


Encore 破銅爛鐵


PS. 回想了很久應觀眾要求而唱的雨和眼淚, 但我真的忘了是什麼時候唱的, 越想越不確定… 總之是在中後段XD

:) on this rainy day

Good Feeling

It’s remembering a dream as sweet as a first love when I woke up.

It’s discovering a big heart in my town for the first time.

It’s receiving a brilliant birthday gift smelling like cherry.

It’s bought 3 CDs without planning but all touch me in different ways.

It’s learning Kutcher’s show is on TV again.

It’s a rainy day. Evening air flows into and cools down my room.





on this rainy day


feel the moonspill drift to silber grey


would like to feel the sun, but it's too late


on this rainy day


~anjali, rainy day

A Little Surprise

我這一輩子沒有很認真地看待發票對獎這回事. 偶而都過了兌獎期限我也還沒對.

有時候新聞公佈發票中獎率又要下降幾個百分比, 我都沒有什麼感覺.

但是我每次拿到發票都會好好地對折收好, 然後堆疊在書桌固定的角落.

小時後是妹妹會去把報紙上的號碼抽出來, 現在很容易地可以從網路上看到.

偶然想到, 就會找出號碼, 確認一遍之後再丟進垃圾桶, 每幾個月會重覆一次這樣的循環.

有時候會看著發票明細, 陷入幾個月前的回憶, 有點惆悵.

可以連續十年都沒有中獎的機率, 應該是遠比中過幾個200塊低得多了吧.

但是我真的沒有中過, 倒是幫家人換過幾次獎金.

剛剛, 我一邊對五六月的發票, 一邊想, 為什麼每次都要抱著一點點小夢想, 不把發票捐出去呢?

反正從來就不會中獎呀. 一邊把很多跟中獎號碼差一號的發票不猶豫地分到要丟掉的那一堆.

沒想到, 這次竟然有一張末三數一樣的. 我竟然中了兩百塊!

我第一次中獎耶! 這樣子的小事大概只有我自己會開心吧.

是有一次逛Candy Shop時亂買的發票. 哈哈.

海洋音樂祭-The Wall-BRMC

過於充實又無法睡眠的三天終於結束了. 我終於可以開始消化.

但是沒有辦法. 因為我又被音樂佔領了一次.





我要說的當然是那一個白天進去白天出來的The Wall的故事. 海洋音樂祭因為兩次的颱風, 我要看的國際團, 最後終於在The Wall 豋場. 但是海洋的東西要擠到The Wall來表演, 不用懂器材也知道是很難的任務. 經過一場, 很大的混亂, 空氣中參雜著三字經和大家口中呼出來的怨氣與菸味, 還有一股無奈. 一堆一直跟我借過不知道要到哪邊去還是其實想插隊的人們, 讓有點缺氧想吐的平時不生氣的我, 一度要爆發. 最後我只求吸得到氧氣, 伸展我的肩膀, 並且祈求皮膚不要因為太多他人的汗水接觸而過敏. 這都是有意識的時候的印象. 等到十一點之前那段時間, 默默地站著蹲著, 偶而跟mapi 的吉他手聊一下, 聽著大家的抱怨, 或是樂迷間的聊天. 我只希望我在BRMC出來的時候還看得清楚, 還站得穩.

進到小小的The Wall, 開始就是Vincent Gallo. 他說台灣的女生很漂亮, 他遇到了一個他覺得最美的女生. 他再說什麼? 我懷疑自己的聽力有退步… 但是我好像沒聽錯. Vincent 的東西很好聽, 很喜歡他的轉音還有結尾的那一小段喉音, 很冷靜又包含很多故事一樣. 讓我想起另一個很喜歡的vocal, Horace Andy. 可惜的是, 他的東西當開場太可惜, 也不適合. 等待了很久的人們, 似乎很想蹦蹦跳跳一下. 要是他不用趕時間, 可以在中間出場, 大家一定會靜靜地被他鎮住.

Baseball的表演, 不是我喜歡的東西. 有點痛苦的撐過去… 小提琴的聲音, 雖然主唱很high, 但是一點都沒有出來, 整個旋律都不見了. 我有點不知所以然. 一起來的粄粄看完就說想走了. 果然呢.

Melissa Auf Der Maur, Melissa很性感很可愛很討人喜歡, 她堅持要馬叫聲, 她說喜歡我們那個浪漫的傳說, 有小鳥搭成的橋, 很美, 七夕. 她說她要感謝陳水扁讓她們可以表演 (但是她們有碰頭嗎?) 她說要謝謝我們, 這場live很棒, 這是她2005第一場表演, 八個月來第一場, 未來八個月也不會有另一場. (為什麼呢, 有點寂寞的感覺, I was wondering.) 她的上衣, 一直很令人在意地往下掉, 我也會忍不住注意那個黑色蕾絲若隱若現的白皙胸口. 她的音樂, 還不錯, 但是沒有特別感動, 記得她靜靜地唱著歌的時候, 蠻有說服力的. 但是令我印象深刻的還是因為她曾是Smashing Pumpkins 的bass, 雖然那一張也不如之前的好聽… (visit her blog here)

Boom Boom Satellite 表演之前, 我的體力已經要到了極限, 幸好同行的Randy有在沙發區找到位子. 喝了令我胃更痛的可樂, 坐著休息一會兒之後, 才恢復了一點元氣. BBS的第二首歌, 讓我想起了Yukki (of L'Arc) 的混音作品. 鼓手很強, 日本團鼓手總是很強, 喜歡把鼓皮調很緊, 點總是準到情感快不見. 不過BBS的東西重覆太多了, 我還是喜歡聽比較drum n bass, trance或是有一些sampling的東東.

終於, BRMC要來了. 今天就是為了他們. 話說我也沒有這麼喜歡他們, 到可以為了他們枯等到地老天荒的程度, 等到後來不禁想, 以後我到英國, 有更多更喜歡的團可以用比現在輕鬆多了的方式聽到, 我到底在幹麻. 但是我心中就是有一個瘋子, 可以的話我會一直等下去. 現在他們要出來了, 好奇怪, 好奇怪. 終於要來了嗎? 此時我的身體這時只靠Epinephrine在支撐. 很後悔為什麼不多買幾個大腸包小腸. 爽朗的Spread Your Love 吉他聲響了, 他們在霧氣朦朧中出現了. 一股無法抵擋的感動襲來. 對, 就是這個. 我等到現在就是為了這個. 我完全被Bobert Turner迷倒. 透過帘幕的縫隙, 在開場前看到他不斷走動, 路人的感覺讓我一直覺得他應該是sound man? 但表演的時候, 他的bass就是會吸引大家的注意.他的bass好重, 好流暢, 好陰沉. 是位置的關係嗎? 在沙發區聽到的bass非常大聲, 配上Robert Turner緊繃的音質, 不在意地低唱, 帶著鼻音的一點點神經質, 這個組合讓我失神. Now she's gone love burns inside me Now she's gone love burns inside me Now she's gone love burns inside me 聽到了Love Burns的此時, 心中滿滿地覺得有這一首歌就值得了! 情緒越來越高張. White Palms的bass, 再多彈一下, 我就要哭了. As Sure As The Sun讓我突然想到了, Billy Corgan. Anybody feels the same with me? Or it is just me? 那個慢慢地, 細緻地扁平地, 輕輕喚出來的


And all the time


I thought your words were mine


You held me down


As sure as the sun


是一個蘊含著一點點歇斯底里的呻吟. 我為什麼現在才發現這首歌美好呢. 全身虛脫加上過多的乾冰, 幾乎要昇華的感覺, 原來吃藥可能就是這樣嗎? Peter的吉他當然也是很厲害. Red Eyes And Tears 的那一個和弦, 好喜歡. Nick Jago...因為乾冰太多了, 自始至終他在霧中看不清. Robert在台上一直會靠近, 逗弄觀眾. 終於到了最後一首encore, 他跳了下來, 這時已經忍不住跑到台前的我, 奮不顧身, 心中只有一個很深的決心要到他身邊. 然後我找到了他, 順著人潮的壓力, 我一直貼在他身邊. 他的氣息很美好, 抱著他的感覺, 像是時間要停止. 在他要回台上前的一轉身, 我被碰到失去了平衡, 向後倒去. 他回頭看到了我, 攔著我的腰一把抱起, 在他胸前, 他淺淺地笑著和我說sorry. 那一刻好清楚, 我在他眼睛裡看到好多東西. 他是個清晰的人. 舞台前方的音效, vocal 很模糊, 但是太high的我已經自動把缺口補平. 在今天這樣的場地, BRMC可以調出這樣的balance, 做出這樣平穩的演出, 不枉我為他們把The Wall的沙發跳壞. (但我心中還真害怕下一刻沙發裡的木頭就會刺穿厚厚的海綿, 還有我的converse橡膠鞋底)

結束了. 很漫長的一個晚上. 在The Wall的迴廊, 好像在發送剩下的BRMC T-shirt, 老外staff 在丟T-shirt. 手上他剩一件紅色的T-shirt. 雖然很累了, 但是我還是散發出無限誠懇又甜美(雖然其實我不知道這該如何辦到, 只能靠想像) 的笑容對她說: Please~ Please~ Please~~ 他笑了, 把那件T-Shirt拿給我. 好開心, 走的時候還對他wink and say thank you. 我體內的Epi-N 一定很高, 才會做得出這樣厲害的行徑. 爬出The Wall的階梯, 天已經亮了, 很亮. 空氣很清新. 我的心也很輕鬆. 有一些東西醒了. 有一些感動無法承受, 只能讓旋律在心中控制不住地一直迴旋. 太值得. 現場怎麼會這麼好聽. 是今天極限的狀況讓我有另一種境界的體會嗎? 希望未來一年他能到London表演, 屆時我要再印證一次這次的感動.

Mulberry in Bellini

今天和國中同學去吃飯. 我們隨意找了一間新開的店.

店有海藍色的門和窗, 咖啡是用鮮奶調的, 蠻好喝.





讓我踏出店門後會回想的是青澀的服務生妹妹. 叫她桑椹好了. 沒有為什麼. 桑椹今年高中剛畢業, 正準備去外地唸書. 她的笑容淺淺地, 有一股感情會從裡面透出來.





在點餐的時候, 桑椹很認真地聽, 好像是自己要做給我們吃ㄧ樣. 同學在煩惱要點哪個甜點好呢… 桑椹會看看她, 說她有吃過唷, 上面有芒果淋醬, 很好吃. 看到她的笑, 我知道她是真的覺得很好吃呢. 她一定是剛開始打工吧, 因為她的情緒太真實, 很純真的感覺讓人好喜歡.





其實餐點很普通, 但是當她認真地問我們好不好吃, 好像很在乎答案. 我在那樣接近天真的笑容下, 只能說還不錯. 同時覺得自己真是沾染了灰塵的人類. 同學認真地和桑椹討論起她吃的義大利麵, 說應該要乾一點比較好, 然後就聊到了skylark去了. 她一點也不介意, 聽得很高興.





我和同學聊了好久, 桑椹說要送我們紅茶喝. 走的時候還給了我們兩個有很多餐廳折價卷的本子, 說可以去五角冰舖吃唷, 還害羞地笑.





好可愛的妹妹. 一點兒都沒有普通店員熟悉又制式化的感覺. 可能是餐廳不忙, 所以讓她有保持這樣純真的余裕. 不過應該本來就是一個內心沒有階梯和轉折的人吧. 很可愛. 讓人有一點點不知如何碰觸. 因為她是很真心地, 所以也要很真誠的回應她才對. 當同學說下次再來看她的時候, 我已經默默地在想下次來的時機了. 在夏天的晚上能遇到這樣的人, 很涼爽, 像是心靈稍稍地被治療了一樣.

Budapest Congress Photos

Hey DJ! Let's get it started!!











這是在一個湖邊辦的barbeque party. 風很涼, 水很綠, congress快要結束了, 熟悉的大家開心地聊天著, 新成的情侶們三三兩兩在旁邊親暱著.





這個法國男生佔據了DJ台, 自己開始撥歌了. 原本大會有請專業的DJ來, 不過我覺得他放的歌很棒! 他很可愛吧~ 哈哈
































這是第一天的Opening Ceremony~ 聽說要穿得smart, 讓我苦惱了好一陣子. 畫面上有... 捷克, 斯洛維尼亞, 法國, 克羅埃西亞, 芬蘭(?), 等等各國人... 從第一天就要非常耗腦力地記住這些東西~ 幾個戴帽子的男生是法國人,這一年他們一齊戴了貝雷帽, 上面別滿了他們個別隸屬組織的徽章.























<左> 為了回台灣之後所要交的報告, 照了工作時的照片~ 這是Regional Meeting. 我們隸屬於Asian-Pacific. 正在演說的人是亞太區的chairperson, 澳洲人Simon. 他在會期間拋下可愛女友三天, 跑到隔壁的保加利亞登山去了, 非常奇妙的人. 隔年他和軒豪(Singaporean) 分別變成IPSF的President&Vice president. 他們兩個人個的英語...比歐洲各國人的都令我難以理解.


<右> 這天晚上大家跑到多瑙河西岸的Buda舊城區去玩, 幾十個外國人一起去坐地鐵的景象, 讓匈牙利小朋友呆了好一陣子. 晚餐在一個很像古堡的地下室的地方. 那一餐不太好吃, 但是大家很純真地分享自己國家的民謠, 很好玩. 圖中間的是Andy, 他正在唱很長~~~很長的英國名謠, 大家聽到了後面才發現這首歌似乎不會有停止的一刻...














差不多是聊聊法國人的時候了~


這是一個連續圖, 從左上到左下為(1)~(4), 右上到右下為(5)~(8)


這天是International Night. 就是日本人要跳歌謠, 丹麥人要演維京人短劇, 匈牙利人要跳民俗舞蹈的時候. 但是法國人這天晚上太high了... 他們很徹底地重現了英國片The Full Monty (一路到底: 脫線舞男) 裡面的秀. 一模一樣的舞步, 熟悉的音樂, 前奏一出來大家就瘋了. 有沒有真的脫呢? 有! 不過也有兩三個人有點小害羞, 哈哈. 這幾個法國男生就住在我房間對面. 在這天表演之前, 我就常看他們神神秘祕地, 拿著針線跑來跑去, 又堅持不透露他們的計畫. 到了晚上我才恍然大悟~ 那個脫衣舞專用, 一扯就掉了的長褲, 可是他們自製的呢. 他們對於這支舞是非常執著, 認真的.








這是法國人喝醉的樣子... 對~ 我房間外的走廊變成這樣了. 他們很認真地對我說, 這個地板真的很舒服唷, 你要不要試試看, 房間的床一點都不好躺呢. 在某一天的GA, 有播出ANEPF(法國藥學生協會) 年會的錄影. 內容真的太瘋狂太好笑了. 很多男女一開心就脫了, 配樂是一首有女生叫床聲的歌(歌名我忘了...但是被MTV片頭sample過) (也許和 Serge Gainsbourg 的"Je t'aime... mon non plus" 有關?)





一個法國女生Fran告訴我, 不是每個人都對身體這麼開放, 像她就不是, 但是他們也不會去否定別人的行為. 這就是法國人的自由~





法國人在這年給了我們一首很開心的歌~ Hey Baby. 他們編了一個簡單的舞讓大家都跳的很盡興. 會後我到了阿姆斯特丹, 在逛唱片行時, 還稍微找了一下這張單曲. 不過年輕的店員竟然說... You mean Hay baby by No Doubt? No? Oh! It's by DJ Otzi but I think that song sucks. 嗚... 人家是因為有回憶才想找嘛...























<左> 會期間也會開個小差, 到Budapest城區去玩~ 有一天和新加坡一群女生出去玩, 大家嘰嘰喳喳地逛街. 我們去了中央市場可是已經關門~ 就到河岸逛逛, 照片上正在吃下午飯呢. 這幾個新加坡女生看起來都很小, 不過能力很強, 隔年的congress就是他們組織的唷.


<右> 這天為什麼會和這幾個美國人走在一起呢? 好像是一個有點無聊的Scientific Symposium結束之後. 因為聽Eddie, Patricia說知道一間叢林餐廳, 覺得好玩就跟去了~ 呵~ 這幾個美國人都非常地客氣又照顧人.








隨手來幾張我和幾個朋友的合照吧~


<左> 這是Marie, Swedish, 最近偶而還會通信連絡一下. 她現在已經是藥師了. (瑞典的假好像很多, 老是聽她再計劃最近又要去哪一個國家玩了) 我們正要進入Gala Night的會場. 歐洲人的行頭都很不簡單. Marie算輕便的, Gala Night出現了很多大禮服呢~ 聽說我以後的學院辦的ball也是這樣, 嗯...


<右上> 這是個總是香香的法國男生Eric. 他最愛的是Burberry. 他有自己的一套精品哲學. 總是很有耐心地聽我說話. 長得很可愛, 有點帥. Therefore, he is gay. 殘念.


<左下> 我旁邊是個Tanzanian. IPSF有一個叫NEEMA的project就是專注在籌措經費或是醫療用品給Tanzania. 他是這一年來自Tanzania的代表. 這是我第一次有機會和比較貧窮的中非國家的人談話. 我們真的很幸福. 有時候有一點無知, 其實世界上有大部分的人生活都好辛苦. 不過和他談話的時候, 並不會感到心靈上的不同. 是很特別的經驗.








這是跟第一張照片同一個時間拍的. 相片左右兩個是Estonian girls, Chirstina and Kaisa. 常常沒有跳舞的時候就跟她們聊天. Estonia是不是翻成愛莎尼亞?我最近看溜冰還是體操賽轉播的時候忽然領悟到~剛認識的時候為了搞清楚Estonia在哪邊, 還畫了地圖研究了一下. 身上的是七藥盃T-shirt唷.

















寫到這邊又累了...要貼照片真是麻煩許多...post-congress的故事就下次吧...

Budapest Congress

My past summers is the recurrent theme of my mind recently.


Most of the time I end up in flashbacks to 2002 congress in Budapest. It was an IPSF experience.

Right, I know I have to explain and I will try to make it brief and simple. IPSF—International Pharmaceutical Student's Federation. Oui. It's a student organization. I think it's under UNESCO as well now. I was the delegate of my school and one of the 7 delegates of Taiwan Pharmacy Students attending 48th IPSF annual congress in Budapest, Hungary. Yes, it's cool. No, it's not a prestigious event and it's for every pharmacy student.

I was Head of International Affairs of the student society of my department then. Sounds cool but not. Nobody knew what I was doing and even I do not know how and what should I suppose to do since there is no real predecessor of my position. I think I'd better skip these boring details because they're full of interminable meetings and discussion, tussles over power and control and even foreign policy and normal people won't feel good after reading.

Here are central ideas of the congress outside the GA (General Assembly) room.


- Partying partying partying


- Alcohol


- Self-introducing for a thousand times


It's a bit crazy for me at that time. It was super fun and demanded superman's energy.

Where it had been held


Congress of 2002 was held in a neat hotel called "Hotel Stadion" because of its vicinity of People's Stadium in Budapest. It was an average 3 star hotel and it was their delicious breakfast that woke me up every day even I stayed up 'til morning the previous "night". Their gym was fairly good and always occupied by français during congress days.

Things we do


We had GA everyday and some workshops and sub-committee/regional meetings in the day. Everyone have to keep sober and sometimes dressed up. I had a presentation about PPAC activities in Taiwan in a certain day. Can you imagine how nervous I was when there are hundreds of people down there and many of them fluent or even native in English? I spoke a bit fast cause I wanted it to be finished ASAP. Andy (a Britain) said he could totally understand me afterwards. Thank GOD! However, my presentation must have been dull and plain then…


At night, there were always parties. All kinds of it. Ball, international night (French guys all naked! night), auctions, beach party, barbeque party, parties in college courtyard, public bath, boat and vault of castle. Moreover, all these seemed not satisfactory enough; we have our own room parties. Exhausted was a feeling guaranteed there.

People participating


I've forgot exactly how many countries did we have that year. But I've met people from (be prepared, it's a long list): Armenia, Australia, Austria, Canada, Croatia, Czech, Egypt, Estonia, Finland, France, Germany, Great Britain, Hungary of course, Macedonia, Malta, Mexico, New Zealand, Peru, Poland, Portugal, Russia, Singapore, Slovenia, South Africa, Spain, Sweden, Tanzania, Thailand, Turkey, The Netherlands, Tunisia, US, Yugoslavia. Amazing, isn't it? I was surprized too when I found out I can still recall so many people from everywhere. There must have been some I had no chance to talk to so you have the idea how international this event was.


I love Portuguese most amongst them. They are too cute, literally and personally. They are all passionate and extreme friendly. I had great time with them during the congress and post-congress tour. Boys and girls are all brilliant dancers! French guys are very funny. I will show you their crazy pix next time. The American are nice. British girls are beautiful and cute and boy is humorous. Thai people are all friendly. Singapore girls are intelligent and optimistic. Swedish are great partners in my work group…ect. It’s hard to write down my impression to all of them. It's definitely a unique experience.

Feeling good and bad


I'd faced the pressure from IPSF executive committee and Taiwan government before this congress. It's about mainland China wish to eliminate "ROC" from the member list of IPSF. IPSF was about to join UNESO that year and Chinese in UN try to change our name as "Taiwan, province of China". As a Taiwan delegate, I had to negotiate with Leonard Plain (The president of IPSF) from the very beginning. I do not like these staff but could not get away from it so this is was the hard side.


All others are unbelievably pleasant in the other way. Nationality and skin colour don't matter. I get alone with people from everywhere very well. Most Asian people do not stay long in parties but I stay up nearly every night. Sometimes chat with Europeans and sometimes try to dance with them though I'd never gone to night club in Taiwan. (only in London XD)

Post-congress tour


There were about 20 or 30 people in the post-congress tour. We travellred around Hungary and Slovenia. I love this trip. Thanks to Lucija, the organizer, I've discovered how beautiful Slovenia is. Otherwise I may never find out Slovenia is such a lovely country. Our Tour was in famous landscapes, castles, museums, farm, pharmaceutical company, wine vault, lakeshore and several cool bars. We have several Portuguese so we turned every place into dance floor after all. It was very hard to say goodbye in the end of this journey…





I seem talk too much but this is only a tiny part of the story. Too much have come back to my mind now...

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory

I saw Depp's new film last night. The ticket is cheap, worth only 2 packs of Cheetos. ^+++^

Depp's films are always worth seeing. There is no doubt he is a considerable talented actor. He can do anything. He could be Captain Jack Sparrow and author of Peter Pan and now Willy Wonka!

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. I knew I will like it from the beginning, 'cause I saw young Charlie's house. Isn't it fantastic? The small cabinet is shabby, ragged, and crazily leaned. And Charlie's "room" is open to the air. The Burrow, the Weasley's house, is roomy and neat, compared to Charlie's home. But I like them both. The Buckets are funny people. 4 grandparents are just like the house, ready to collapse anytime. The story sometimes goes too exciting and it worries me, afraid that any of them will have a stroke.

Other 4 kids are very funny, stereotyped in different ways. You must met some or all of them in your life. They are funny because they are predictable. It's the author's imaginative arrangement made me laugh. As to the astonishing Chocolate factory, wow, you must go to see yourself. It's colourful, beautiful, magical and delicious. Brilliant!

Willy Wonka, owner of the mysterious factory, is a quirk. Johnny Depp added some oddity and eeriness to this character incrediblely and made me fond of this petulant and creepy chocolatier though he resembles Michael Jackson a bit.

Freddie Highmore is amazing too. His firmly look made you feel there is really a plucky young English boy inside. I knew there must be chemistry between he and Johnny Depp when I saw Finding Neverland. This time, they have really found the neverland.

I haven't seen Wilder's version of Willy Wonka but I am sure Tim Burton and Depp's version is far beyond good enough. I have made up my mind to read other Roald Dahl's books--Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and Charlie and the Great Glass Elevator. (It must be inherited from Willy Wonka, isn't it?) Must be fun!

PS. The Oompa Loompas was(were?) casted by Deep Roy, in case you want to know.

Here is a reminder of some of Johnny Depp's recent works:

Pirates of the Caribbean

Finding Neverland

Secret Window

From Hell

Chocolat

Sleepy Hollow

They are all fab, aren't they?

I've got a feeling of 17teen

嚇了一跳, 剛剛

突然出現了好幾個17歲的朋友

Kun去日本唸書了

Touya這兩年去了日本七次

猴剛衝完野台回來, 氣志團果然很high

謝謝Arara~~~ *chu*

17歲的時候, 要聯考

但是是我高中最有時間聽音樂的時期

因為剩下的工作只要唸書就可以了

那個時候, 下課就去新竹玫瑰二樓玩, 自己放歌來聽很棒

印象最深是自己在換歌的時候, 會慢慢調小聲, 很得意

不過馬上就被糾正, 因為有Fade鍵 =3=

那時候的玫瑰, 片子比現在多太多了

在那邊除了飛鳥和逸維兩個人一搭一唱很好玩

常常還可以遇到很多朋友, 大部分是J-Pop/Rock達人

可以一群人討論喜歡的音樂, 真的是很開心很開心的事

我喜歡聽音樂認識的朋友 總覺得很純真

有的時候, 會去cw玩

認識的Cosplayer都是很有個性又很爆笑的外星人

拍貼的本本 有好多回憶

15,6歲的時候, 上課都在看政治論文, 漫畫, 還有Remarque

17歲的時候, 看Q, 但是看不懂, 但是還是要看

那時候有一本新雜誌Rock Sound, 我都會買, 因為有送CD

而且很大方地放整首歌, 不像Zappy 只有一段會聽得很失落

Muse就是這樣聽到的, 那時候放的是第一張單曲Uno (Vinyl) 裡面的Agitated

記得有一本是年度poll ranking, 我徹頭徹尾地看了, 好有耐心

這本雜誌薄薄的又是騎馬釘, 實在很方便上課看

這些雜誌後來都留在大學的熱音社, 不知道還在嗎

高中以前聽的歌, 像母語一樣, 聽到會特別有感情化的波動

所以我永遠都會很愛why does it always rain on me

though I didn't lie when I was seventeen

Memory is what once starting to recall, more and more details will flood in.

I feel, like fua said in Endless-love—I've got a feeling of 17.

It's vague but I'm certain. It's thin, and pure.

Dear Diary

Dear Diary, I talk to you every time I feel depressed, anxious, stimulated and mostly sleepless. It was you that brings me in peace when I was not able to standing must-dos in life, overwhelmed by a tune or a scene, perplexed by fathomless silence nights and idly sitting around in exotic destinations. I can scribble in you continuously and endlessly. From now on, I am going to bring part of you here to register my youth. これは青春だなあ. The 17 inside me said so.

Youth

A novel of J. M. Coetzee, author of Waiting for the Barbarians, Life & Times of Michael K and Disgrace. Youth is his fictionalized memoirs. "A young man's struggle to find his way in the world with tenderness and a fierce clarity"—from back cover description

I read it because it was in London. Simple. Unlike exciting Waiting for the Barbarians which is full of complicity, Youth was succinct and restrained. I like it because of its unflinching honesty. You see a young man from Cape Town yearns to meet a girl and dreams to be a poet. Nonetheless, his real life was only working reluctantly and feeling uninvited in London, say, misery. Coetzee's acute description and beautiful words made the adolescent's dull life exhilarating. It also reflects part of my self-interrogating. Do I really know how to make my work meaningful before devote my life to science? I hope I will figure it out soon or merely hope there will be less frustration laid in the near future.